Hummm.. where to begin? It seems that after living on this planet for 21 years starting to write something about anything would not be a very trying task. This is not true. I am not sure why I started this or what journeys these pages will contain, but, I hope that some sort of insight will be gained by myself and whomever may choose to share these pieces of my life with me.
I have recently moved in with my girlfriend. We have a great relationship, however, I am used to having alot of Amber time. I am used to pretty much being by myself. I don't want alot of space, I just need time to collect my thoughts. I often feel that if I talk to her about this she will become upset with me. Guys, this woman is beautiful and I don't want to see her cry. I know that it seems that if we are ready to move in together that we would be able to talk this through but, she see things very 2-dimensionally and would see this as a low blow. A sign that I didn't want to be in this relationship, which is most definitely not the case. Plus it doesn't help that I am a total "people-pleaser" and often sacrifice my feelings in order to see that the person opposite myself (not just her, anyone) is satisfied with the energy that I am giving them. I just want to be happy and not run from this...I think that is what I am doing. I know that she is the one and I am running. Making sense of this all hurts terribly.